Goodbye

...He told me he changed, that he wanted a second chance, that he loved me,that he wanted to be with me, that he had changed for me.

Strange thing about this boy is that that night he could make me smile even under the strangest of circumstances like in that particular instant when I just wanted to cry, he apolagized for being an ass in the past and told me if I gave him a second chance he wouldn't hurt me again.. but if he did he would leave me alone forever this time.

He said he could be in front of any other girl at that instant but he chose me, because he had fallen in love with me and no one else...

He asked if I believed him, if I could put the past behind us, if I would give him a second chance...the only words I could seem to find was that I would always care for him, but I could never love him, nor trust him nor be with him like we once were. We sat on the steps for what seemed like hrs. He cried as I held back my own tears, he held my hand looked into my eyes and just begged for one more chance...

He said all of this and I turned away kissed him on the cheek and told him I had to go. He grabed my hand pulled me in close and held me...and right then thats when I realized it was easier to say yes and give in to temptation than it was to just walk away.

So I let go of his embrace and walked down the steps, I opened the door as he stood on the steps behind me telling me that all he wanted was one more chance, I walked outside closed the door behind me and walked away for the first time in a long time I was doing what was best for me... I could see him through the window as I walked down the snow covered side walk away from his house, this time I really meant goodbye, and as I walked away from the red brick house one last time on a cold January night I finially knew how it felt to let go of something I had held on to for so long.