Alan

Why didn't you write?
You told me that you would text me after work, that your mind wasn't clear you needed some time...

But I didn't recieve a letter before nor after January 6 and all the time passed by and you didn't text me back either..what did you want from me? I told you I missed talking to you, I wanted to make things right with you being I am not really sure why things went so wrong in the first place.

Maybe the bad timing drove us crazy or we wanted something we couldnt have or we were trying to turn nothing into something. I dont know what happened and I guess I never will but what I can't understand is why you lied to me.. How you could tell me you would write, how you could put that thought in my mind... I looked in my mail box every single day over break just to be dissapointed. A part of me never wanted you to write because I thought I would be healed and have you in the past and the letter would be one giant flash back but instead it just made me think of you more because I was so dissapointed in you, that you were so typical, that you cared so little. Its almost embarrassing how much I cried over everything my mom kept asking me why I cared so much, or what was wrong that she hadnt seen me soo shookin up in a long time and I couldn't even explain what I was thinking. It just hurts when someone tells you you are emotionally guarded, that no one could get in and whenever I did trust you you hurt me more than anyone has in a long time. Its strange I've met a few assholes in my time but you know what you expect to get hurt by the asses you however I never saw it coming.
So thank you for being typical, thank you for going back on your word, and most of all and I mean this one thank you for teaching me that walls are put up to keep people out but those walls are just to see who is willing to break them down or over come them and you apperantly just didn't care all too much because I am just a kid with lots to learn, but you are very much just the same as me...I hope you realize it before it's too late your not inviniceable nor are you much more then typical.